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(no subject) [Oct. 10th, 2006|07:17 am]
Katie
so i know ive been slacking, its been 2 months. but i do have a good excuse. well not a good one... more like a shitty one. bc the situation really sucks.  no time no to get into it though. just thought id update saying i am still alive.
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(no subject) [Aug. 16th, 2006|11:56 pm]
Katie
soooooooooo its been about 2 weeks. 
well lets see... Cal came home from england on the 7th (i think it was the 7th...doesn't matter) and he got me an amazing necklace. i wouldnt even know how to begin to describe it. i love it though. 

ive been up in barrie job hunting. and i found one. at bentlys. i also came home to a few calls from other places i applied... so im not sure what im going to do since i already told bently i would take the job. who knows. 

so since cal has been home i have spent pretty much every day with him aside from being at work. which stinks. cal, brad and i went to cals cottage yesturday. it was a drunken fest with the 3 of us. i got soo sunburnt. im really sore. really. really sore. my thighs... stomach and chest all hurt. blah.  

im hoping to move to barrie around the 26th.... which is when my parents leave for mexico. haha. i don't want to work down here any longer than i have to.  im sooo looking forward to being back in school and in barrie. and its now less than a month until the hip conert. whoooo. can't wait.  

next tuesday i get my wisdom teeth taken out. ouch. im dreading it. well, except for the idea of my mum pampering me and eating lots of ice cream and smoothies. mmmm... nothin planned for this weekend. except for work. and lots of it. working at both jobs all weekend. cal is going camping with his friends so he wont be down. but he promised to bring me a dr pepper flavoured slushie. yah, im excited for that. i love them.
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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2006|09:19 pm]
Katie
alright so i think i am losing my mind. i had my self convinced that i had updated about my birthday night out in toronto. welll ... turns out i didn't and im just nuts. so here it goes.

i played phone tag with stacie all day figuring shit out. the plan was to head to her house to get ready and from there we would head to the go station and hop a train to toronto where we would meet her friends. so we get to her house around 8ish, we get ready then take a cab to the go station. on the way there we are stopped at a stop light and a limo pulls up next to us. and well stacie being stacie she rolls down the window and starts talking to the guys in it. yah they were pretty cute. turned out that they were going to toronto too. anyways we get to the go station and stacie calls matt (yah she broke up with max) and he says he is getting a ride there with some friends and for us to meet him at port credit. so we do. so we get to his house and drink a bit then go to meet his friend outside of his building... but he is late so we hop a train to toronto. we decided to go to blvd avenue. it was awesome. we  were walking there and some rep from the club gives us passes for free entry to the club. so we get in and stacie  presents her "id" to the bouncer. yah.. she lost her license like 2 days b4. i think he only let us/her in out of pitty. but hey, it works for me. so it turns out that it was only $3 drinks. yah. we all got hammered. i didn't buy one drink for myself. yay. every one was buying me drinks for my bday and plus they were cheap so no biggie. lots of shots, lots of drinks and lots of dancing. it was awesome. the club was wicked.  matts' friends arrived aroudn 1am, chris, meaghan and tracy. they were cool too. kelley met some guy from calgary and wandered off with him and when it came time for us to leave.... it was nearly impossible to get her to to leave him. she was hammered ofcourse. she was trying to convince me to let her stay and take a cab home later. no dice. i wasn't leaving her. and we were leaving with a ride. so finally  i convinced her that she had to go. we droe for about 5 min in toronto then we all had to pee. so where do we stop? wll ofcourse in a car dealership parking lot. yup. i peed behind a bmw. haha. we all piled back into the car. oh yah, 5 people in the back of a car really sucks. stacie was sitting on matt and i was spread out across kelley who was in the middle and meaghan. it was interesting. we were almost back to suaga when meaghan had to pee.. so we stopped on the side of the highway, since she apparently couldn't wait.  ha. we get backt o suaga, make a few pit stops and finally get back to matts apartment. by this time it was around 330am. so kelley and i called a cab and headed home. we got home just after 4. still drunk ofcourse. since stacie owed me money from the purse incident... not getting into it. i came home with more money than with what i left with and used most of what she gave me for my share of the cab ride. obviously we woke my parents up. i don't think i have ever come home and not woken them up. oh well.  the next morning was rough. i had to work at 1030 but ofcourse duke woke me up at 8am. so yah i got about... maybe 3.5hours of sleep.  it was worth it tho. the next day kelley felt bad about the guy from the club since she had a bf at home, so that sucked. but overall i think it was  a great way to end her visit here. i know she had a great time. we all did. one that must be repeated before i go back up to barrie at the end of aug. 

so yah that was my birthday trip to the bar. it was awesome.and definately makes up for last year. which... was dissappointing. not the whole surprise party for my mum.. that was good, i would never pass up getting drunk with my family. the part that kinda sucked was after that. when some friends and i went back to amandas to drink and swim. i think in the end i only have one person to blame for that though. there is only one person in the world who i would ever let upset me to the point of crying on my birthday.... i think its obvious who it was. but im not going to get into that, again,  so im not going to name names. 

cal comes home on monday!! and im so looking forward to it. i work until 5, so depending on when his flight gets into toronto my dad offered to take me to meet him. so hopefully he gets back no realier than 6, or its delayed.  either way though i am going to find a way to get either thurs and fri off at the mixed grill or the wed and thurs off so i can go see him in barrie. i have those days off at timmys so im free. im working all weekend ofcourse... every weekend and i would much rather be able to actually spend time with him than have him come to my hosue for the weekend and wait for me to get off work each day. ill probably be working doubles anyways, just like this weekend. blah. having 2 jobs sucks bc its such long days... but i love being able to acually save money.

i was talking to rob and he said he is plannin on goin up north on the 26th. so thats when im moving 23days from now. whooo. im excited.



...they say time heals everything, but im still waiting
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2006|04:02 pm]
Katie
[Feelin' so... |blahblah]

so my birthday was good. relatives came over, stacie and kelley were here too. kris stopped in. work wasn't bad either. no annoying kids either... thank god. monday kelley and i went to toronto. it was a long day filled of shopping, and an interview. it was a good day. tuesday we went to mapleview and burlington malls with mum to shop... once again. wed i had to do some training stuff at timmys. then we headed off for toronto again. this time we went to the art gallery of ontario and kelley got a tattoo. of a maple leaf. its really nice. it was another long day. today has been a lazy day.  watched movies until now. i have to work at 6, on the patio. so hopefully itll  be busy. tomorrow im working 7-3 at tim's then 530-? at the restaurant. bah. saturday im workin in the morning then later on that night kelley stacie and i are goin to a club, mink i think, in toronto. for my bday... since last weekend it didn't happen. sunday im workin brunch.. and kelley heads home. so hopefully ill be able to get off early so i can go with her to the airport.  

so my grandad forgot my bday. he called on tuesday. it was my uncles bday on tuesday and i think that is the only reason he remembered. yup. im not impressed. he kept making up excuses. 

i didnt get the job... that i had the interview for. the girl who got it has experience in digital... something. so while she is working as a recpetionsit she can do side projects. so that sucks.

i miss cal. i hate not being able to call him whenever i want. he comes home in just over a week.  

i hate working at timmy hoe's ... and im still doing "on floor" training. it sucks. 





Courage is not the adsence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.~ Ambrose Redmoon
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2006|12:09 am]
Katie
so i got 5 fillings done today. 
my mouth hurts. a lot. 
work sucked... as expected.
kelley comes back from her cottage/camping trip tomorrow. yay.
i want to drink so much, simply bc i can't... stupid fillings. 
....so really there wouldn't be much of a point to going out, unless i was dd.
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3 days [Jul. 20th, 2006|10:18 am]
Katie
[Feelin' so... |okayokay]

soooooooooooo. cal leaves for england tomorrow. he's going to come over tonight after he packs. he wont be here until around 830 though. have i ever mentioned that long distance relationships suck? like.. the distance part, not the relationship part. i can't wait until i move up to barrie in sept.... and get back to school... obviously ill have to find another job. but meh.  

my birthday is in 3 days. and the plans that stacie and i had to go out with some people to.. republic... completely flopped. yup. so maybe big bucks? maybe hess? probably neither though. probably just drinking at my house. samething happened last year... no one could go out. se we went to amandas and i passed out at like 1130 pissed off. yah mad on my birthday thats not supposed to happen. three guesses on why i was mad... or should i say who made me mad. im sure most people would be able to figure the person out on the first guess. so im going to do what i have been doing and avoid that person at all cost. it already sucks that cal isn't going to be here so there is no way i am letting someone else ruin it. 

im working all weekend, ofcourse. including sunday. i have to get some cavities filled tomorrow too. great way to start out the weekend... not. lol. im scared. this will be my first time. then in a month i have to get the rest. yup... the rest. i have 7 total. thats what being away at school for 2 years will do. i went from having none to having 7. it sucks. oh and i have to get my 3 wisdom teeth out. and i say 3 bc i only have 3.  i went for asma testing yesturday.. finally. 

on another note: this morning i had to literally fight off my cat so i could drink a glass of milk. she wanted it. and she seems to think that she gets whatever she wants. which... sadly is basically true.  she is spoiled. but for once i didn't let her drink my milk and she went all crazy trying to move my hand off the glass with her paws. it was crazy. she is crazy. and very very spolied.


 alright gotta go to work.
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good weekend. [Jul. 18th, 2006|03:48 pm]
Katie
[Feelin' so... |sleepysleepy]

alright. so friday night cal came over, ofcourse, and i didn't have to work. we picked up stacie and max from her work then headed back to my house so my mum could drive us to daves. because we were getting hammered. yup. so we get there around.... 10ish. it was a major sausage fest but meh.  yup so after a few drinks we headed into his pool.  lots of fun. lots of drinking. his dad was hammered. dave was hammered. he actually passed out first. well, after puking.so we were in and out of the pool for a while. finally got out then, perfect timing, it started raining. dave was carried down from his room, still passed out, by his dad and a couple of guys and thrown into the pool. it was halarious. oh and ofcourse he had the cliche penis drawn on his face. it was afterall his party and he was the first to not only puke but to pass out. so he woke up... drank more for a while longer and around ...230-3ish when cal and i left dave was nicely tucked back into bed. the cab driver was a moron. he tried to turn down a dead end street asking if he could get to upper middle from there. i ofcourse told him to he was idiot and could not turn down a dead end street because its a dead end. he then asked me if i wanted to drive.  i should have said yes. but it probably would not have been a good idea. being drunk and all.  so we get home and its still piss pouring rain. 

woke up around... 10ish. made breakfast then went to daves to get our swimsuits that we forgot. saw a movie. went to eastsides. then i had to work. 

sunday i worked in the morning... then the bodnars came over. so not really fun or eventful. 

cal called in sick yestuday for work so he could stay the extra day with me since he leaves on friday for 2 weeks. so yah, i worked till 130, then we went for a walk up at the top of kerns road by the lookout. we had chinese for dinner. stopped by stacies. she was baby sitting her little brothers. william then 4 year old jumped on cals' balls... so he was in pretty rough shape for a while.  we just rented 'failure to launch' and watched last and pretty much went to bed. we both had early mornings.

 so thats my weekend.


so today i worked until 3... later on im goin to the gym with mum. thats about it i think for tonight. haven't really talked to anyone and pretty tired. i think a nap is a good idea.

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just a little bitching and complaining. [Jul. 12th, 2006|10:17 pm]
Katie
[Feelin' so... |bitchybitchy]

alright. so im going to be 20 in 11 days. yah. i definately thought i would be in a difference place by the age of 20 than i am now. im not necessarily complaining. its just an observation. now that being said, i really don't know what i was picturing for myself by the time i was 20. i just know: this isn't it. sigh. yah, i really have no idea what i had potentially thought i would be doing. i just have the feeling that i have let myself down. ...like i could be doing something else. something more. but i can't quite put my finger on it. i just rememer watching tv shows and movies with girls in them who were like 19 or 20 and they led the most awesome and appealing lives. i remember thinking that when i was 20 (or even 19) my life would be just as fun and exciting. 

well that is definately not that case. i am almost 20 years old, home from college and i have definately not gone to one party  since ive been home. i have been to one bar and that was with people from work after a shift. so i really don't think that counts.  i hardly go out. when i do, its to movies or the mall, or for late lunches with friends....hardly what i was seeing in the movies and tv shows. basically i watch a lot of tv and talk on msn, when im not working, which isn't often. 

every weekend my bf comes down. im definately not complaining about that. but after working all weekend, i think he actually spends more time with my Mum and Dad than with me. sad eh? its stupid though, bc if i work a dinner shift and get off aroun 10ish, im usually tired from work and don't feel like doing much. and if i work the lunch shift i start around 1030-11, so i don't want to go out too late because i have to work the next morning. so either way im screwed. ive just started a second job, so hopefully ill actually work longer than 2-3 hours at a time. but with two jobs, well, there goes my social life - not like i had much of one anyways. so there is no way ill be going out, even though im sure it wont be much of an option anyways. 

so i duno, maybe its just me but this is definately not what i was expecting my life to be like at 19 going on 20 years old. those tv shows and movies made it seem like all people did at my age was go out and party and go to bars. well, i dont know about other people my age, but i am definately let down by those false standards set by the movies.  

so maybe its the night after night i spend watching tv at home that has made me realize: i never go out. i love going out. strange huh?i went out soo much in college. but not now. i think i went out more last summer by this time that i have this summer. amanda and i are different, no doubt about that. but even with other people.  other than her i don't really converse with the same people as i did last summer, atleast not as much as i did then. martin and i talk .... every so often.  adam and i... same deal, occassionaly.  erin and i, hah, never. she kept saying yah we'll get together and leave it at that. well you know what hunny? im not wasting my time trying to hang out with someone who can't be bothered to call and say hi.  i guess it just seems that i don't go out as much bc i spent so much time hanging out with amanda last summer. and really... not so much this summer.   stacie is back in burlington. back not often at all, so its kinda hit and miss there.  and sam.. im not even going to go there.

i guess ive come to a point where i only have a few close friends... after high school i was going out with so many different people... and we've all, quite understandable, drifted apart. which is going to happen. its what happens. not many people stay close with those they went to high school with, only a few usually. but now, after college, those few close friends are in barrie. its wierd though, because cal is still best friends with the same guys he was with in high school. maybe my circle of friends back then wasn't as close as i thought.  a couple of weekends a go i went to cals' friends cottege. a friend from high school. all the people there were people he went to high school with. it just amazed me. from high school i still talk to stacie, and kristine mainly. some other people off and on. how sad? i obviously talk to other people from burlington, but thats its from my own high school.   i guess thats what happens when you move 2 hours away to go to college.


bah... ive definately needed this. just some bitching and complaining.  

so heres the question: is it just me, or is my life actually as uneventful, back in burlington, as it seems?
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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2006|10:03 pm]
Katie
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

What it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I am officially obsessed with that song and music video. I <3 it.
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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2006|06:43 pm]
Katie
[Feelin' so... |boredbored]

so yah. the cottage was awesome. there was actually 2 other couples there too... so 12 of us all together, but i didn't really like them, so i didn't take many pics and don't see the point in posting them. lol. all in all a good weekend.
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